so anyways, im leaving for camp soon, sadly. but other than that i just miss lots of people and i want to go shopping. i might go to tracy's later. but other than that,


now onto the fun stuff//


Do You:

have a girlfriend/boyfriend: nope
think others find you attractive: yes
like someone: uh huh
want more piercings: yes
want a tattoo: nope


Last:

person talked to: tracy's brother
shower: thismorning
movie watched: two brothers
show: i dont know, something on much
ever cried over a girl or boy: yeh
ever been arrested: nope
ever had a friend die: no
ever dated a cousin: ICK no
ever used a gun: yeah? if you cound a rifel... but then again they arent guns
ever finished a puzzle: yah lol
ever hated someone: mhmm


Pick one:

blue or red?: red
spring or fall?: fall



Random stuff:

criminal record?: nope

do you speak a different language?: french a bit

any piercings and where?: ears. soon belly

initials: KKS

how old do you act?: depends... a range from 3-20
braces: yup

do you have any pets?: 2 dogs, 1 fish

mood?: awake



Level 1
(x) snuck out
( ) snuck someone in your house
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) dated a jackass
(x) stayed awake on the phone at night for 3+ hours


Level 2
( ) been in an abusive relationship (physical or emotional)
(x) taken painkillers
(x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(x) made a snow angel


Level 3
(x) hated the way you looked
(x) witnessed a crime
(x) questioned your heart
( ) been obsessed with post-it notes


Level 4
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost
( ) been to the opposite side of the country
( ) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like you were dying


Level 5
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sang karaoke
(x) paid for a meal with only coins


Level 6
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue


Level 7
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
( ) looked up at the stars with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach


Level 8
(x) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
(x) forgotten someone's name
(x) French braided someones hair
( ) been kicked out of your house


Level 9
(x) been used
(x) fell going up the stairs
(x) bitten someone


THE WHO'S

Who is in the room with you?: im all alone

Who was the last person to text you?: etta

Who was the last person you told you loved them? etta...

Who's your favorite relative?: my cousin tyson!

Who gets on your nerves the most from school?: sam

THE WHAT'S

What was the last thing you ate?: cheesecake

What was the last thing you drank?: iced cap

What color pants are you wearing?: light blue

What is the closest item near you that is blue?: shorts

What are you wearing on your feet?: skin...?

What instant messaging service do you use?: windows live messenger

What is your most used away message?: <>

What is your favorite shoe brand?: meh... i like the no-names =)

What do you wear more, jeans or skirts?: jeans

What do you currently hear?: *click click click*

THE WHEN'S

When is your birthday?: July 25th

When did you last go to the mall?: long time ago

When did you last buy a new pair of pants?: uhm... hah long time ago

THE WHERE'S

Where is your favorite place to be?: home

Where is your phone?: in front of me and to my right

Where is your mom?: kitchen.livingroom.oroutside

Where do you sleep?: my bed

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?: garage

What room are you in?: my room

Well lots of stuff has been going on lately, with trying to figure out this weekend and next weekend... Next weekend is gonna be pretty awesome... party at erikas sunday, then bowling with matt rob and alyssa on saterday. Im pretty excited aobut that... Oh super exciting... we're tenting in erika's yard!! XD

School has been going alright. Had my math exam and i pretty much aced that. No biggy.

Anual was so totally awesome!!! Drill team wasn't the greatest, but then again we were doing drill all day. We had a pizza mixup too... we ended up paying $5 for one slice of pizza, a drink and a popsicle that erika decided she was going to buy when we had to feed the band and two drill teams with 6 pizzas and then i never ended up getting my popsicle!!! oh and also all of the awards went to guys this year. did anyone but me notice that? oh and also the dinner sucked monkey balls. but it was alright overall cause i got to see my lovely deanna

lately i have been doing some catching up with a few old friends... some from camp last year and some from cadets last year. Thats pretty awesome if you ask me.

I got service band this year, so i will be gone for six weeks at camp from july 10th to august 18th. If you want mail, give me your name, adress, postal code and city and i will send you a letter while im there for sure!

but anyways, i have a half an hour till i have to be awake to go gliding... so bye!!!

~Kimberly-Kay

Banff was SO awesome. I had so much fun. The bus ride was also pretty good. We had to wait in Regina for an extra hour though on the way there because the bus driver wasn't at the place where we were supposed to be meating him so we had to wait for him to take a taxi to the hotel that we were waiting at. It was alright, sept for the fact that i had to sit beside chris for 14 hours because youngyun was being selfish and taking up the only extra seat so she had two seats to herself. but its okay cause i went and sat on Brittany and Kaitlyn. Then Mark started to talk to me. Jazz thinks that he likes me, but that would SCAR ME FOR LIFE. Cody also started talking to me out of nowhere and Britt and Jazz think that he likes me too cause Jazz is his ex and she said that that was the way that he talked to her before he asked her out. That is so dumb though because he is in grade 8 and i dont talk to any of the grade 8s. We stoped at some gas stations and i got a slurpee then i didn't want it and nobody else would take it, so i was stuck with something that i didn't want, but its all good. then i got a stye in my eye so it got all swolen and pink so i thought i had pink eye, but i didn't so that was a releife. The mountains out there are soooo beautiful.

The hotel was also really nice. Our room had to be one of the better ones. We had a normal room wiht a bed and a fold out couch, a table with four chairs, tv, fridge and a microwave. It had a bathroom with the sink in one part and then an extra little room built onto that with the toilet and the shower/tub there. on top of that there was another little room built onto the main room with a bed, a tv, two night stands alarm clock, and a closet. i claimed that room as my own. that was awesome but i left my vanila hand cream on one of the night stands when i left. i was so sad when i realized that.

The band festival was pretty good. We didn't play that great, but we still did alright. The clinic was SO amazing. the cliniton was crazy, that made it all the better. We attended two evening concerts. One was a choir from South Africa. They were amazing. and the other was a jazz band, they were also really really good. At the first evening concert i saw Stephan!!! I forgot how good of a body that kid has=P but yeah, i can't stop thinking about him now. Today i found out that he has a crush on me =) He said that I looked hot when he saw me.

Mariell and Rob were spooning.

I went shopping a lot while i was there. I got some flats and i got a new purse. I got some new panties and i got a few shirts. other than that i was shopping for my sister's b day and my mom for mothers day. I got my step dad a golf ball with a cow on it! It's so cute, its from the cow shop. I was going to get some cow PJs, but they were way to expensive.

Our group dinner at the Keg made me sick so i was sick for the last day there and the bus ride home. but that was okay. I felt pretty bad already because we only had junk food for five days. that could make anyone feel sick.

On the way home we stopped at the west ed. That was fun cause we all went to the water park. I love the water park there, but most of the slides were closed, so we spent most of our time in the wave pool. then i forgot how to open my locker so i had to get help with that. My bathing suit has a rip in it now so i need to get a new one. I was going to get one at bluenotes, but the bottoms were to small and they made my fat squish. the top fit me though, so i was going to get the top and then just look for bottoms somewhere else, but it was orange, so it would have been pretty hard to find bottoms to match it. It's okay though cause i can just take etta shopping with me cause she is my good luck charm when it comes to finding pretty bathingsuits =)

Alannah tripped up the down escelator so we had to stay in edmonton for an extra three hours so she could go and get stitches in her knee. she got 8. we stayed at the west ed for an extra hour then we went to gateway lanes and played a round of bowling. i kinda wish we played laser tag, but its okay. I twisted my ancle at the west ed playing ddr.

The bus ride home was alright too. I sat beside Jazz, but we moved up so we could talk to gage and mark... don't ask me why... i guess its because they were the only two still awake besides us. We slept most of the way besides that. I love sleeping on busses, they are so easy to get to sleep on.

Today i found out that Stephan still likes me =) that made my day =)

Etta is my super cool superhero!!!

~Kimberly-Kay

alright well i think im gettins sick, but then again when do i not get sick?

so anyways, i thought i lost my trupmet over spring break, but i found it today lol few that was a close one cause my step dad was gunna yell at me cause yeah, i lost it =S. so anyways its a good thing that i found it cause i dont like getting yelled at.

15 days till banff. 12 days till jules is in winnipeg. he said that he might come and visit me when im in banff, but i dont really know when/ if i would be able to see him anyways unless he decided to come and see us play at one of our places, then i guess i would see him... maybe i should tell him to go to edmonton instead and then we can go shopping! cause shopping with jules would be fun cause everyone just loves julian.

I finally finished eating my box of cerial!!! =D im so happy... but now i want another box, but then again i dont because i dont wanna get fat. I didn't get anything from the easter bunny this year... well i did, but it was only like 2 things that each cost less than one dollar! isn't my mom mean? lol jk i love my mom.

I wonder what i should take to banff with me... i should probably start thinking about it so that i have everything i need before i leave. cause last year i forgot to take a tooth brush and toothpaste and all that good stuff. it was kinda weird but oh well. i need to go shopping. I guess i need some $ if im gonna go shopping =s oh well... im going shopping with my mom tomorrow... i get my sims game and then im going to get my grad dress (its going to be super rad... black and white polk-a-dots and a green lace to tie it) and im going to wear it with my chucks, but if it is as cheep as i think it is, i should be able to get another pair of chucks. that would be awesome cause these ones are already starting to fall apart a little and that way i can get another colour and mix what shoes i wear =)

I wonder if anyone is gonna come shopping with me tomorrow... i dont know i think tina was sposta come, but i think she is still grounded untill this weekend. who knows. i sure hope she comes because i dont know, i guess i need a seccond oppinion on my dress lol

i kinda gotta go cause my teeth hurt... KATIE IS MY BRACES/CHUCK BUDDIE!!!

-Kimberly-Kay

Yeah, so lately i have been thinking about grad, i mean who hasnt! It's only two months and most of the people already have someone to go with. I guess I shall go alone. Well here is my list of who i can think of off the top of my head.

Natasha - Rob
Mariell - David
Kaytlyn - Tem
Tesha - Zach
Steph - Kai
Tina - Jason
Orysa - John
Ave - Cole
Brittany - Ryan
Raissa - Myles
Breanne - Daniel
Kaitie - I know who she asked, but im not sayin
Jen - Ben...?
Ashley - Jeff B. ...?


Alright well you get the point. I am pretty much the only one that is going that wouldnt MIND having someone to go with. It's kinda sad cause David is a jerk. =) I was gonna ask Rob, but Natasha got to him first. It's all good though.

Anywho tomorrow shall be awesome. I am goin to see Alyssa, and our plan is to go to Garret's again and hang with the people and shtuff. Shall be awesome. I sure hope cause she's payin for the cab though, cause thats $36 that i dont have lol anywho i dont really have much more to write about.

My loverly sister is here. She is pretty awesome. I really missed her. I hadn't seen her in like 5 weeks so i went to breakfast with her and my mom last weekend. That was fun, good ol' waffles... and SWAPPING TOPPINGS!!! XD

anywho i shall go now, cause i am bored stiff and i wanna go talk to my buddies =)

-teh raddster

alright... well this entry is pretty much for my dad.

dad its not that i'm afraid of you, its that you dont care. you didn;t even remember what you were supposed to be doing when my mom asked you where you were supposed to be. one minute you are saying that you were out all weekend and the next you are saying that you went to bed on friday with a migrane and didn't wake up till sunday. i dont know what to beleive anymore.

I locked the door cause i was hurt. I didn't really want to have to come to pick up robyn, but she is my sister and i haven;t seen her in five weeks. so when mom came to get her for breakfast i decided to tag along cause i wanted to see how she was doing. i really didn't even want you to notice i was there. i wanted in then out. nothing personal, but i;m waiting for you to figure out what you did wrong.

I;m not a kid anymore, dad, you can't tell me one thing and then do the other. you seem to think that i will always forgive you, like i will always be the one to say that its alright, we can try again next time. but this time i dont know anymore. as much as i hate to say it, you arent really there.

It;s been building up to this for the past 6 years though... it started at not showing up to soccer games, to some band concerts, breakfast plans on days that i probably should have been making plans on anyways... and now what. how do i know that you are going to be there? do i have to call and conferm everything? its like i have to remind you that i exist all the time. and how the heck did you find my livejournal anyways? this is MY PLACE for ME to come and talk to my friends. it isnt for you to try and learn about me...

I think you missed those years. the years where the only thing i really needed was a friend to be there. someone to talk to me and tell ME that everything would be alright. you missed the years that i wanted to be just like you and grow up to be a house painter. heck, you missed my childhood. you think that just because im the young one, i'll be a child forever.

well im sorry, dad, i'm not a little kid anymore. when i make plans, i dont like getting stood up. i'm in grade 9, i'm not 9 years old.

some days i dont even think you know ten things about me. you dont seem to know any of my intrests. you dont know my friends, nor do you seem to care. you dont even know my style. you dont know what i plan to be when i grow up. you dont know anything about me anymore. i'm growing up and you seem to be sitting around like its not even happening.

well in tired of it. I'm just being myself, and if your plans for me dont fit who i am, than too bad. remember, you are the one that doesn't have time for me. its not the other way around.

I waited for 2 hours. you never showed up. how do you expect me to trust you again? i just dont understand it. so i have taken your way, the easy way, i quit.

Okay lately one of my best friends has been blowing me off and ignoring the fact that i am alive. She doesnt return my phone calls, and she doesnt even try to make plans with me. She was the one that got all mad at me for not wanting to come to her hockey games, then when I told her that I wanted to come, just to tell me the times, she doesnt even bother with that! She expects me to get her excused absenses from cadets, like i did on Friday... when she is just blowing off cadets for hockey! I hope she knows that that was a Cpl. evaluation day... oh well who cares. i dont care right now if she gets promoted cause she obviously doesnt. It just makes me angry how she can be so unaware of my feelings... unaware of the fact that I HAVE feelings. She doesnt seem to understand that the world doesnt revolve around her. She cant expect me to want to be her friend after she keeps blowing me off like this. Its so dumb.
On a much happier note... Alyssa and I are supposed to be doing something tonight. Weither or not we actually do, I do not know. She is just at the store... she's supposed to call me when she gets home. I have to remember to tell her that Julian says hi... then expand on the topic... Alyssa is really nice.
On Friday at Kelseys it was interesting. Joel found a hair underneath his pizza so he got it for free!! Haha thats funny =p but also kinda gross... =s Yeah it was fun cause i was bumming a ride off of Mike... Who lives across the city from me =) it was fun, although I dont really trust him driving anymore. I got home before midnight, curfue, so it was all good.
I spent some time with my darling Etta yesterday. She is so pretty =p We played the sims 2 and made a family... to bad that the old person couldn't be our parent hey etta? Anyways, we made some other people, but then i had to come home because it was 9:20 and I didnt know where my mom was. I got home and she was here with the streaking kit that she promised. So I got my hair streaked (that took 3 hours) and she had cut it earlier in the day. So now my hair looks like it could belong to me. It fits my personality.
Now i want to get the sims 2 because it is so much better than the sims (1) and i would actuall spend time playing that instead of runescape... cause runescape is nerdy and online where there are creepy people. maybe i should use that in an argument so that i am aloud to buy it lol but yeah. it is so much better than the sims because the people actually grow up and when you have a baby they turn into todlers and you have to teach them how to walk and how to talk. it is so awesome... the cheat is (according to etta) something like "bigmoney" to get more money, but she doenst know how to get the cheat box up so yeah. I should probably look that up for her on the net.
Anyways i gotta get going. I will write more later =)

-teh raddster

bleh... this was on Tracy's LJ, and she told everyone to do it on theirs. so here.






(0) Your Name: Kimberly Kathleen Shesterniak
(1) Your gender: Female
(2) Straight/gay/bi?: Straight
(3) Single?: Yes
(4) Want to be?: myself!! =D (yay for clever awncers)
(5) Your birth day: July 25th, 1991
(6) Age you act: uhm either 2 or 18-19
(7) Age you wish you were: 15-16ish.
(8) Your height: 5'9"ish
(9) The color of your eyes: brown
(10) Happy with it?: sure
(11) The color of your hair: brownish??? im getting blonde in it soon
(12) Happy with it?: not yet.
(13) Left/right/ambidextrous?: righty
(14) Your living arrangement?: mom's house all the time/ dads when i feel like it
(15) Your family: Mom, Mac, Robyn, Teaghan, Dog: Riley, Dad, Lori, Lisa
(16) What's your job: nothing =)
(17) Piercings?: in my ears... i never wear earings though
(18) Tattoos?: nope
(19) Obsessions?: none atm
(20) Do you speak another language?: I can speak some french =) oh and i know how to say "Hi, I'm Kim" in Korean
(21) Have a favorite quote?: "you never really know a man untill you walk a day in his shoes"
(22) Do you have a webpage?: Yes... www.dancin-in-the-rain.piczo.com

DEEP THOUGHTS.. about life and you in it

(23) Do you live in the moment?: ... maybe?? =s
(24) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: most of the time =p
(25) Do you have any secrets?: yup
(26) Do you hate yourself?: naw, thats just silly
(27) Do you like your handwriting?: haha i like my 'handwriting' more than my printing
(28) Do you have any bad habits?: uhm... maybe?
(29) What is the compliment you get most from people?: my eyes are big and really brown
(30) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: "The KIM"
(31) What's your biggest fear?: being alone in a place that i've never been... in the dark!!!
(32) Can you sing?: according to young-yun im one one of the best in my school =s
(33) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: No, thats dumb
(34) Are you a loner?: naww... i've got my friends =)
(35) If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: who wouldnt be friends with me??? I'm just the awesomest person around!
(36) Are you a daredevil?: haha yeaaaaaaaah
(37) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: i dont fear myself? and whats there to hate? I'm awesome!
(38) Are you passive or aggressive?: depend on the situation
(39) Have you got a question: Nope =p but if I did it would probably have to be; Must I?
(40) What is your greatest strength and weakness?:Strengh: My attitude Weakness: *heart*
(41) If you could change one thing about yourself..?: i would have killed myself when i had the chance XD
(42) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose?: Love because its the only one that you choose weither or not you have
(43) How do you vent?: my friends are great listeners.
(44) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: nope =)
(45) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: yyyyyyyeah... not saying what though
(46) Do you think life has been good so far?: nope... i blame it all on my dad. and my mom.
(47) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life so far?: If someone says they are going to be there, it doesnt mean they will show up.
(48) What do you like the most about your body?: my EYES!!! XD
(49) And least?: my bum/hips =S
(50) Do you think you are good looking?: Nope, but im not ugly =) and thats all that matters
(51) Are you confident?: hell yeah
(52) What is the fictional character you're most like?: hmmm... I dont know XD
(53) Do people know how you feel?: my friends do =)
(54) Are you perceived wrongly?: erm... piiiiicccckkkkleeee...

DO YOU...

(55) Smoke?: No.
(56) Do drugs?: No.
(57) Read the newspaper?: No.
(58) Pray?: No.
(59) Go to church?: No.
(60) Talk to strangers who IM you?: No.
(61) Sleep with stuffed animals?: YUP XD
(62) Take walks in the rain?: All the time!!! I love the rain!!! =D.
(63) Talk to people even though you dislike them?: Yes.
(64) Drive?: No.
(65) Like to drive fast?: No.
HAVE YOU EVER...

(66) Liked your voice?: Yeah, its kinda manly, but i like my singing voice =p
(67) Hurt yourself?: all the time
(68) Been out of the country?: Yep
(69) Eaten something that made other people sick?: lol yeeeeah
(70) Burped?: NO... CAUES IM A ROBOT!!!
(71) Been unfaithful?: ... yep.
(72) Been in love?: I dont know.
(73) Done drugs?: No
(74) Gone skinny dipping?: Nope.
(75) Had a surgery?: Yes
(76) Ran away from home?: LOL no but i tried to once =p
(77) Played strip poker?: nope
(78) Gotten beaten up?: yep
(79) Been picked on?: all the time till grade 6
(80) Been on stage?: all the time! i was born for the stage
(81) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath?: ... =s o.O >w< no.
(82) Pulled an all-nighter?: Do it all the time
(83) If yes, what is your record?: 3 days!!! =)
(84) Talked on the phone all night?: Yep
(85) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: yes =S
Slept all day?: ya, i was 7 =p
(87) Killed someone?: Nope... but i squished someones head with my fingers XD
(88) Made out with a stranger?: Eww. no.
(89) Had sex with a stranger?: EWW no!
(90) Thought you're going crazy?: I am not GOING crazy, I AM crazy!!! XD
(91) Kissed the same sex?: Nope
(92) Done anything sexual with the same sex?: Nope
(93) Been betrayed?: yep
(94) Had a dream that came true?: actually... yeah its creepy =s
(95) Broken the law?: J walking!! XD
(96) Met a famous person?: I met MYSELF!!! What could matter more?
(97) Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: nope
(98) Stolen anything?: nope
(99) Been on radio/TV.?: only TV. im on it all the time in news storys... in fact ill be on it again some time soon
(100) Been in a mosh-pit?: yeah, gotta love moshing
(101) Had a nervous breakdown?: ya, i was on happy pills
(102) Considered religious vocation?: HAHA no way
(103) Been criticized about your sexual performance?: o.O NOOO
(104) Bungee jumped?: haha i wish
(105) Had a dream that kept coming back?: Yes

CLOTHES.. and other fashion

(106) Shoe brand?: Chuck Taylors (Converse), airwalk =p
(107) Brand of clothing?: anything from American Eagle to Wal Mart
(108) Cologne/perfume?: "so pink" from the gap
(109) What do you normally wearing to school/work?: jeans, shirt, sweater (ae or cheerleading, socks, my awesome green shoes
(110) Wear hats?: Only if they are rad
(111) Wear make-up?: most of the time
(112) Favorite place to shop?: bluenotes... they always have stuff there that i like
(113) Favorite article of clothing?: my green ae sweater =p
(114) Are you trendy?: HELL YEAH
(115) Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: that wouldn allow me to be origional and then i would match David EVERY day!!! =s

BELIEFS
(116) Believe in life on other planets?: wow idk.
(117) Miracles?: yeah
(118) Astrology?: nope
(119) Magic?: sometimes
(120) God?: no
(121) Satan?: no
(122) Santa?: YES
(123) Ghosts?: ya, ive seen my grandpa =(
(124) Luck?: sometimes
(125) Love at first sight?: no because love is one of the deepest feelings and it takes lots of time to develop...
(126) Yin and Yang?: nope
(127) Witches?: nope
(128) Easter bunny?: who else would be bringing me chocolate every year?
(129) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: naw, everyone goes wrong at one point in their life
(130) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: yeah
(131) Do you wish on stars?: ya

LOVE.. and all that

(132) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: uum no =s
(133) Do you remember your first love?: Mhmm
(134) Still love him/her?: No, I dont even know where he lives anymore =p
(135) Do you consider love a mistake?: naw, theres always something new to learn
(136) What do you find romantic?: I'm not too sure... its kinda a moment thing
(137) Turn-on?: eyes~! =p
(138) Turn-off: grrr druggies
(139) Do you base your judgment on looks alone?: no way in hell, im not shallow
(140) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed their interest in dating you, how would you feel?: I would simply tell them that i have feelings for someone else, cause that is never a lie =p
(141) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"?: being blind is dumb. you've always gotta know the person first for the simple reason that you dont know if the person you end up dating is a jerk.
(142) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: lol nobody really cares anymore
(143) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: HAHAH YEAH!!! !!!!
(144) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: who knows?
(145) What is best about the opposite sex?: The way they act =p
(146) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: they are immature
(147) What's the last present someone gave you?: ummm... a stuffed monkey! =)
(148) Are you in love? naw, but i have a crush on someone =p
(149) Do you consider your significant other hot?: i dont have one!! =p
(150) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk?: walk on. its just life.
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...

(151) That haunted you?: nobody? =s
(152) That you laughed at?: Ashley... she tripped on her way up to the front of the room
(153) That laughed at you?: Everyone in my class
(154) That turned you on?: Maria
(155) You went shopping with?: My MoM!!! She got me shoew =)
(156) That broke your heart?: it hasn't been broken, for it hasn't been fixed
(157) To disappoint you?: Caitlyn
(158) To ask you out?: Mike
(159) To make you cry?: I think it was my mom and Mac... no wait. MY DAD... no wait... I dont know what to call him. Mr. Shesterniak made me cry.
(160) To brighten up your day?: Maria.
(161) That you thought about?: Keith =s
(162) You saw a movie with?: Melanie.
(163) You talked to on the phone?: Tracy... cause she just called me
(164) You talked to through IM?: Erin. I told her happy st.p's day =p
(165) You saw?: my step dad... walking into the house
(166) You lost?: My uncle...
(167) You thought was completely insane?: ME MYSELF AND I!!!
(168) You wanted to be?: me... myself... and i?
(169) You told off?: Ashley
(170) You trusted?: Tina lol i told her a secret
(171) You turned down?: hah... mike

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU...

(172) Smiled?: At school... when i got my report card
(173) Laughed?: on the way home from school...
(174) Cried?: when i talked to Mr.s
(175) Bought something?: SHOES!!!
(176) Danced?: on my way home from school.
(177) Were sarcastic?: i'm NEVER sarcastic. (-.-)
(178) Hugged someone?: uhm... i hugged mary today when i hit her in the eye with ice
(179) Talked to an ex?: yesterday. then he asked me out again and i said no =p
(180) Watched your fave movie?: umm... forever ago
(181) Had a nightmare?: like yesterday? =s
(182) Talked on the phone?: 5 minutes ago... to tracy
(183) Listened to the radio?: last night
(184) Watched TV?: yesterday
(185) Went out?: I went to school today....
(186) Helped someone?: Today.. at school... i helped mary get up cause we were sitting on the bike racks and she fell over.
(187) Were mean?: today when caitlyn told me to pull up my shirt i said something mean.
(188) Sang?: yesterday at musical prac.
(189) Saw a movie in a theater?: like 3 weeks ago with mel
(190) Said "I love you": yesterday!!! =p i said i love you to mel
(191) Missed someone?: now...
(192) Fought with a family member?:like 2 days ago? maybe 4?
(193) Fought with a friend?: umm like a week ago
(194) Had a serious conversation?: last night...
(195) Got drunk?: its been a long time, my friend.

Alright, today was pretty awesome =) yep... musical prac was really fun for once... although i wasnt really acting that well lol! The best part about it was when everyone was offstage just cause the conversations were really funny lol that and i got cracker in my hair... yum.. thanks Cole.. =S Oh and remember cole... shirt stays on and buttoned up =) Oh and Mariell im really sorry about your nose =(

I came home and chilled for a bit... talked to some friends... then my mom decided to take me shoe shopping =) it was fun... and i got some really awesome green chucks... mhmm i love 'em. Then we went to eat at moxies... that was interesting.

tomorrow everyone is wearing skirts to school cause its some thing that we planned today lol its going to be fun, but it might look funny because im going to wear my new shoes and a tan skirt =S Lol it will be fun though... =)


-teh raddster

Okay this is a rant, so if you dont want to know what is going on with my dad these days, dont bother reading this becaues thats what its going to tell you about.

He said that he didint have time for me to come and visit this weekend, so we made plans to go for breakfast together at seven o'clock thismorning. He decided not to show up... so my mom called him at 8:30 and he was still sleeping. My mom asked him what he was supposed to do today and he didint even know! She said that he was supposed to be here to pick me up an hour and a half ago and he said "oh, it completely slipped my mind"... I cant beleive him!

I get in trouble when i dont call him every week. I get yelled at! He hasn't called for me in two months! He is too busy to see me, its like he doesnt even care. In fact, im pretty sure he doesnt care what i do, as long as i do what he wants when he wants it, and he can decide weither or not he is going to do what he says he is going to do.

My dad knows NOTHING about me except for my name, and what i look like. That and maybe the fact that i speak english, most of the time. He doesnt know who any of my friends are, nor does he want to meet any of them, and he really doesnt care. He doesnt know what kind of music i listen to, he doesnt know what colours i like, he doesnt know ANYTHING. If i didnt force him to make conversations with me, i doubt he would even bother talking to me.

I dont know what is wrong with him, but i guess he'd rather not have anything to do with me. As much as that hurts, im fine with it. He has never been there for me, so why sould i expect him to be now?

Well I woke up late again today. Thankfuly i had time to get ready for school, and i still got there earlier than most people. The morning is all a blur, kinda boring. In fact, most of my school day was boring.

I got my cheerleading sweatsuit today... The top fits, Bottoms are WAY too big... i mean... some fat kid twice my height would fit them!

Came home from school and did my uniform for cadets. That was interesing. My mom got home, and i was aloud to go out tonight, but i couldnt find a ride, so i just came straight home from cadets. Oh at cadets it was a SQD.Prac. Today so We did so much drill it isnt even funny. We had opening parade, drill improvement, then drill team. It was insane, but oh well... Drill comp is on sunday, so we gotta start cracking. I had to guard the flag today... Bahartie cant stay in dressing worth shit, so ya, i think i get my flag back next week :D

This weekend, i went snowboarding at Asessippi. it was a really interesing weekend. My story all starts at the lovely bus ride there.

I was sposta sit with tracy, but she showed up really really late, so i decided to sit with my darling alyssa. tracy got pretty pissed off at me for that, but i still say that it was her own fault for being late. anyways, there was a lot of seat switching going on the entire ride. (we watched 3 movies... holes, dodgeball and some other movie... i think.) Alyssa ended up moving up to sit beside Josh, and Alain moved back some seats and sat infront of tracy, whom i was sitting with, and then tracy wanted to lay down, so i moved up and sat with alain. we sat there talking for a good 10-20 minutes, then Tracy randomly walks up and whispers at me "are you two back together" and NO!!! we are not. so anyways, then i went and sat with tracy for the most part of the ride, and watched some movies. then we had fun getting off the bus and going to bed.

Snowboarding was fun... i spent most of the day with Julian cause Tracy is a ditcher. I miss Julian soooooo much!!! it isnt even funny anymore. I miss him all the time. And you know what? I found out that he likes Alyssa!!! ya it made me sad cause yes. Curt was there with his darling girlfriend (julian's ex). Curt decided, even after he buggered up his knee, not to leave those two alone together. he came up and down the hill twice with us making sure that there was nothing happening between the two of them. it was kinda sad cause beth is WAY too good for him anyways. I seriously dont see what she sees in him. He complains, he is annoying, and he doesnt trust her. That pisses me off to no end because she is the sweetest girl in town.

That evening was interesing also. Some of us watched a movie (4 matreses made into a triangle on the floor, two pillows, 7 people on them). Alyssa and i decided that David has hair that is nice in the way that you can style it, and Hall has nice hair in the way that IT IS SSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SOFT!!!!! (lol its so cute though cause they were sleeping on the bus ride home =p) thats about all about the movie.

I miss Julian. OH OH!! and Mike got me candy =D

thats about all the interesting stuff that i have time to write right now, so yes.

-teh raddster

Etta you are loved. i love you with all of my fucking heart darling. dont you forget it. and we need to have some sexy sex soon... okay?

-teh raddster

Okay well i have decided that i DO like him... but thats besides the point. i told melly today and she was like wow wtf you odd child lol jk no she was like uh thats interesting. I find it pretty awesome though.

Keith wants me to hang out with him tomorrow after school... i dont know if i want to... i mean its been really long, but why should i? there is realyl no point at all... so i dont think i will. maybe he still likes me or somethin... well he does. he admitted to it yesterday oh and NOTE TO TRACY: he DID like me last year=p in your face lol

anyways, Mel are we doing anything on wed? I kinda need to know cause if we arent i have to talk to Etta Marie to see what is happenin cause yeah Erin Etta and I have to get together for a band prac, but i dont know if i have bass rights yet cause im still kinda grounded from before. It sucks. Oh well at least now i have my computer back. I can now be reached at any time on MSN. Anyways... thats about all i have time to write... oh ANOTHER NOTE TO TRACY: We have to do something this week... I can actually go out now because SooMin goes home tomorrow morning

Maria and I might take our parents/sister out for lunch once we are finished making sure they get on the plane safely... that will be fun... but its really just an excuse to get out of school for a longer period of time lol arent i clever? anyways... ill write more later when i get home. I dont think i have anything planed today.

-teh raddster

Ok so yesterday was extremely awesome. I went to Alyssa's house for a sleepover because we have been planing to do something for two weeks and on Friday we decided that i was coming for a sleepover and then we were supposed to go to watch The Playing Cards tonight, but my mom wouldnt let me go cause its in a bar.

As soon as i got to Alyssa's we decided that we were going to go to Garret's house because he wanted her to come over but he had asked after i was already on my way so she told him that he had to wait and see if i wanted to come. Her parents didnt want to drive us and they didn't want her waisting her money on a cab, so we called Keith because we love Keith and he does anything for us =)

Once we got to Garret's we stayed downstairs and Eli got there, then we set off to some other guy's house where there were two other guys... Matt and the guy who's house we went to! According to Alyssa, as soon as we went downstairs Matt was like looking at Garret and asking if I was his for the night. I never noticed this because i was too busy talking to Alyssa. Then they all came and sat down at the couches and we played cheat! I came in seccond behind Garret and Alyssa finished third. Eli and Matt are the worst cheat players i have ever seen in my entire life!!!

We then all decided to walk to the corner store and get stuff. I was wearing a really short skirt, so they all asked me if it was ok and i insisted that I would be fine so we all walked down the street and walked inside. It is like a 15 minute walk. I couldnt feel my legs, so Alyssa wraped me in her coat =p I got up and got stuff and Matt stole my seat. When Alyssa, Jo, Garret and I were waiting in line Garret was hinting to me that Matt thought I was hot and i should go talk to him. I decided not to because i was confused. Alyssa then sat on Garret's lap and told me to sit on Matt, and of course I didnt. I really should have, but I didin't. Alyssa was telling me to because she said that she thought that we would look cute together. Now that I look at it, he is really cute and really really nice. Maybe next time i should listen to Alyssa. He said that I can sit on his lap next time we hang out lol Sorry i just find that really cute =)

Thats about all the interesting stuff that happened last night, besides how we were talking when we went to bed about how *insert boy's name here* would have envied me because I slept in her bed with her =p lol that was really really funny =D

Yep thats right, only 10 more days of torture. I really really can't wait untill that miserable spoiled brat goes back to south korea =) I know that most of my friends thing it mean of me saying it, but they dont have to live with her. i have complained enough in previous entrys, so i dont think i will torture you any longer with complaints because I am happy enough in my own mind that I only have to live ten more days of it.

Today was interesting, shall I say. I volunteered at the Great Grain Relay today. It was very interesting. i got to be the orange cutting girl because Kristen and I were two of the people that got there later. She, of course, was a lap counter. Some of the runners were pretty rad. In fact, I met one of her runners, and i had oranges on my hands when he was shaking hands, so he was like "Ok I'll shake your head then!". I find it so great that people still have a sence of humor these days!

So yes anyways, Kristen and I werent the only people there from cadets, seing as it was one of the cadet volunteering activities. There was Mike, Stephen, Westly, and Will... also gunner... and Grant. So anyways, I spent most of my day walking around, talking to people, but when i wasnt doing that, i was standing at a table cutting oranges and throwing them into a box for the runners to eat. Isn't that fun boys and girls? i thought so. At least we got some free food at the end of it... and a free t shirt... but that doesnt count.

So anyways, i got home and went on the computer for a while. Tracy and I made plans to get together, and right now she happens to be sitting right beside me listening to music, but anyways, talking about making plans with my darling tracy. We were talking at her house... and at my house... and apparently there is one extra guy at cadets that likes me that i didnt know about. I have thought that he was a creepy child for these past three years, and now i find out that its because he has liked me? How bad can one person feel! I suppose I should start paying more attention to the creepy people, you never know why they appear to be so creepy.

Thats about all that happened today... so yes. I am going to stop talking to you after i remind you yet again, 10 DAYS!!!!!!!! =D =D =D

-teh raddsness <333

Today I went to disney on ice. It wasn't actually as bad as I had expected it to be. Tarzan was tottaly built and it was so hot cause tyeah... he wasn't like some prissy boy that skates around and dances, he was climbing ropes and pulling other people up after him... it was super rad! During the jungle book section, they had monkeys flipping all over the ice and ontop of a moveable kitchen and a... whats that? a chair held up by someone else? wow amaizing. Anyways, they had a teeter totter set up on the ice that the skaters were cannopolting eachother from. That part was awesome. They even had the marching elaphants! They sure cut the lion king short though, they had simba grow up in one seccond *behind scenes* and there was no fight between simba and scar to get the ownership of pride rock. Just scar dancing then dissapearing and simba and nala climbing pride rock with rafeekie dancing down below. I actually think they used a zambonie to make pride rock move. It was really funny. My mom even bought me a snow cone for $10 in a reusable mickey mouse cup. She also got one for soomin who had $500 cash there anyways. At first I got a broken one, so my mom took it back and got me a new never-been-used one. Its rad.

Thats about all that happened today!

-teh raddness

Ok. Today has been rather interesting, well the whole week has. I dont have much time to explain so i will shorten it and explain quickly, although it may take you longer to read it than it will take me to type it. please ignore all spelling errors and grammar errors as i am not going back to check it all over.

I am getting a 37 in L.A. this term, and i have a week to get my grades up. This has me stressing to the max and i am like pulling my freaking hair out! But that is besides the point. I have 2 major projects to complete on my own that i have either not started or lost somewhere along the way. Nobody will even help me catch up because they too have to catch up. most people in my class have under a 20 in L.A. due to the teacher not hounding us to get things in on time. This taste of freedome has made me supper apreciative to how they hound me.

I happen to have a story somewhat like my friend, Tracy, yet my friend doesnt have a sibling that i have a crush on, its just a random boy at school. I dont know what to do due to the fact that he will not like me and probably finds it quite humerous that i like him. I am just afraid that someone will take this whole ordeal much too far and get me in too deep. Due to this i am working on forgeting him, but it is going to take a little more than i expected.

I fought with my friend yet again today. I don't enjoy when this happens, but i must admit that our personalities have clashed from the start. We have always fought, about the dumbest things even, and I dont know. today i finaly cracked. I cant take it anymore. I dont like getting bitched at and i dont like bitching at people if i care about them, but I dont know its just pissing me off.

I have an exchange student from south korea. I tell you I am counting down the days untill she will go home. 13. I am sick and tired of being her personal maid. She throws her towles on the bathroom floor, a new one each day, she leaves her dirty dishes all over the house. she touches my things without asking, and goes on my computer and gets it infected with bugs and spyware. She doesnt clean up around the house at all! She doesnt help cook, yet she eats more food than me and my mother combined. She ate the last of my cerial. It normaly takes me a month to finish one box and she ate one in three days! She comes to school and sits around not doing her work and stairing off into space untill i tell her that she has to do her work. She doesnt keep track of her own homework and she pisses off my friends. She doesnt socialize, she just sits there and stairs at them and coppys their every moves. Nicole and i have this thing. *just picking* and now soomin always does that whenever she sees Nicole and its not cool. She has ruined school life as i know it. and she pissed ave off soo much by having a crush on the same guy as her and now i dont know what to do. I want her to go home so much. go home or start acting her age, not her shoe size.

I recently had to quit the cheerleading team at school due to what my doctor told me about my hips. I have something wrong *there is a name, i just forgot it* with them that they dislocate. I am double jointed, so that has somehting to do with it, Now i have to have physio and i need to get ultrasound on my hip. joy.

anyways i said that i only have a little bit of time, so i must stop now.

-teh raddness